After 5 months of Slacking and basically wasting my life away feeling sorry
for myself, I’ve finally gone and got myself a job. Yet, I’m finding it a
little difficult to be happy. What’s the reason? I’m starting to feel some
negative energy flowing through me again–thoughts like ‘I can’t do it,’
‘You’re not good enough,’ and a lot of other ‘what ifs’.
I should be happy that I’m finally working in a company that I’ve always want
to–a position of Visual Effects compositor, leading a team. I should be
happy, but there’s this nagging thought that I might not be capable enough.
I can DO IT!
That’s what I’ve been trying to tell myself. It’s 4 in the morning, I’m
feeling fearful of my third Boss, who I’ve heard has a short fuse. Even though
I know him well enough, I think I have to remain calm and tell myself that
it’s nothing that I can’t handle.
“I’m good enough for the job, I am calm like the sea, I’m in control of my
feelings and I’m polite and choose not to flare up at anyone”
