New Project – Reviving the old one

Mentioned in the previous post that I have an old hand-me-down computer sitting on the floor. It’s a 5 year old desktop on speed–Pentium 4 1.6GHz, 1 Gb RAM, 2x 80 Gb Hdd, a wireless PCI card. It’s a no-brainer this ‘old’ ‘puter will run Ubuntu with ease, CLI Arch Linux at a blazing speed, wireless connection on steriods. There is however the issue of a password protected BIOS of which the previous owner had forgotten all about. The wireless card is also short of an antenna.

What’s a little bit of challenge? There are more Linux tinkerers who had installed Linux on 486, or Pentium with 128Mb RAM, etc. I’m not going to let something as small as a locked BIOS stop me.

For now, I have to get busy with a crazy influx of year end work. Still, next thing to do >> Find a way to unlock the BIOS.

Finally, a job after 5 months

After 5 months of Slacking and basically wasting my life away feeling sorry
for myself, I’ve finally gone and got myself a job. Yet, I’m finding it a
little difficult to be happy. What’s the reason? I’m starting to feel some
negative energy flowing through me again–thoughts like ‘I can’t do it,’
‘You’re not good enough,’ and a lot of other ‘what ifs’.

I should be happy that I’m finally working in a company that I’ve always want
to–a position of Visual Effects compositor, leading a team. I should be
happy, but there’s this nagging thought that I might not be capable enough.

I can DO IT!

That’s what I’ve been trying to tell myself. It’s 4 in the morning, I’m
feeling fearful of my third Boss, who I’ve heard has a short fuse. Even though
I know him well enough, I think I have to remain calm and tell myself that
it’s nothing that I can’t handle.

“I’m good enough for the job, I am calm like the sea, I’m in control of my
feelings and I’m polite and choose not to flare up at anyone”