Never something easy when you’re starting a new job. You never know whether you’re going to be happy, whether you’re going to have trouble with your new colleagues, if your new Boss is going to hate your guts. It’s been 4-5 years since I last worked for an employer, today is the very first day.

How was it? Not too shabby, however, I find myself jealous of the attention an ex-colleague was getting–Pitiful–I know. It’s 3 in the morning and I’m tossing and turning, bothered by the fact that I’m never going to be anything good. Then it hits me: I care too much about what others think about me.

Sure, we should all have a healthy interest in what people say about us, take it with a pinch of salt and it makes living a lot easier. That’s not mentioning that my ex-colleague is someone who always like to pour ice-cold water down your back when ever you’ve achieved something of importance–truly self-centered.

It took me 6 years to realise that. It might not be too late, but I should take control of my head and emotions and just do my best in my new job–end of story.